Today is National Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day. To be honest with you, this day really caught me by surprise. I guess if anyone should be prepared and ready to write on a day like today it should be me! Sadly, though, my normal, busy, crazy life has gotten in the way. I have a 6th grader, 5th grader, 4th grader, 2nd Grader and preschooler...all at home...that I'm supposed to be homeschooling. But what did we do today? We went to the beach! So, I'm really, really not prepared or studied up for a blog post today.
I'm thankful for today, though. I am thankful that there is a day, a normal day, when God reminds me of His faithfulness to me--When He reminds me to thank Him for the lives of my five babies, who He created in His image, who He chose to populate His paradise. It gets easier and easier as the years go on to just forget--to just plain forget. Life is busy with five kids, and it's days like today that remind me to stop for a bit and reflect on the journey that God has led me on in the past 15 years.
I wanted to let you in on how I am choosing to remember my babies on this special day that Ronald Reagan carved out for families like ours in October of 1988.
1. I am thanking God for each one of my babies that He chose to take home. I am thanking Him in my heart and I am thanking Him by praying in front of my children. I want them to hear and see me having joy in the midst of trial, giving God all glory for life that He creates. I want God to know how grateful I am for entrusting me with the lives of all 10 of my babies.
2. I am remembering what it was like to lose a baby-- Not to dwell on morbid thoughts, or just to make myself cry, but to remind myself again of what thousands of women are going through on this very day. While I am enjoying the beach, or teaching my kids math, there is a woman, a MOM, somewhere, who is learning for the first time that she has lost her baby. I don't want to ever forget the pain that I experienced, because I want to be able to identify, empathize and offer comfort to others who are experiencing the same thing for the first time today.
3. I am reading scripture to inject into my heart God's truth about my pain, my suffering and ultimately his healing and help that can only come from Him. There are many verses that are specific to trials, pain, healing and help. But, really, reading any of God's Holy Word will direct your heart and mind to Him, to His plan and His glory. So, I encourage you to do the same. Continue on in what you've been reading, and ask God to give you an obedient heart to His word, no matter what the cost.
So, thank you, Ronald Reagan, for reminding this momma to stop and remember all that God has done in my life through experiencing miscarriage by creating a day for just that. And, Lord, help me not ever forget what you have brought me through, Your faithfulness to me, and Your goodness through it all.